Saturday, February 16, 2008
Hey everybody,
Things haven't been going too well recently. Well... I don't know how to start... not really anyway....
Lets see... To start, today, Storm came over to stay. Apparently, Aunty Janet couldn't take care of storm as she was too busy and could not cope. So storm came. When i came home, luiza said that aunty janet scolded her for nothing and all. And also, she said she did not want to go anything. Then later on at night, i went to see aunty janet... cos i thought she might be missing storm or something... and we started talking bout some stuff. We talked on how luiza was apparently ill treating my dogs behind my back. Aunty janet said that luiza told her. She told me. however, even without telling me, i suspected it. You realize that everytime one of you come over or something, and we are eating or something and coco or smarty come to us and they will sniff around.. wanting food.. and then suddenly luiza come in and the dogs will RUN around, terrified. Don't you think its a little suspicious? Well then, we also talked bout how my mum thinks that i have to either give away coco or put storm down if i want to keep my dogs. I am most PROBABLY not allowed to keep all three of my dogs. So i have to do something. The thing is, i don't want to give coco away... I've been with her for like more than 5 years... i totally don't wanna give her away. I've no heart to. I love her alot. She is my darling. Storm too. I will never ever ever want to put him down. It'll be a sin. I was the one who raised him since he was born. With that, How can i ever ever take his life away... HOW! tell me... HOW! even if i do not put him down and give him away, seperating him from coco is harsh. Coco has loved storm the most because storm was always by coco's side since birth. Not the other puppies. Can you imagine how she will feel if storm is given away.. HOW would YOU feel if ur most most most loved one was taken away from you. You would be sooo hurt right? dogs have feelings you know...... even if you don't believe it. They do. They love you more then they deserve... much more. they love you even if you beat them till they are at the edge of death. They will stay loyal to you. Thats why i don't know actually how i can even bear to leave any of them. Putting down is also quite impossible... Hoppy was put to sleep without me knowing because she had something wrong with her leg. That caused me to cry for ages. Sometimes, i think about snowy, who died last year, and i think about how those two always hopped to the gate when i came home from school. They followed me everywhere. I loved them alot. I really miss them alot. Hoppy was like the most intelligent rabbit on earth while snowy was like an angel from heaven. I don't wanna talk bout this anymore..............
Today in catechism, my teacher asked who i want to leave to god something bout trust... Now when i think bout it. I only can leave all my pets who have left me. Shadow, Shetland sheepdog... Buddy, white snauzher... Hoppy, tri colored rabbit. Snowy, White rabbit. the puppies that died without even seeing the world, storm's siblings. I love you all. I miss you all.
I don't really want to talk much anymore. I can't take it. Its too sad... I'll go now. Bye...........
Signing off,
HorseLova...
❤5:24 AM
