Friday, January 25, 2008
Hey everybody...
Recently, Things haven't been going so well. Although i don't really want to talk bout it. I feel that i would most prob feel better. After all... the people involved never ever ever will or did visit this blog. Which is both sad and happy at the same time.
Haiz.. to begin.. recently, my mum has been going on and on bout my dad insisting and trying to persuade her to divorce. I thought she was just lying to me or something. To make me like... be a better person. But like... i few days ago, at the playground outside school.. i was alone for a short short moment so i kinda decided to call my dad and ask if its true.. the conver was something like this,
Me: hi
Dad: yes vic?
Me: erm.. how are u?
dad: ok... very busy... why?
Me: I was wondering if u wanna divorce mum...
Dad: Why???
Me: oh.. er.. cos if u wanna, i can help u. mum will definitely listen to me..
Dad: oh really?
Me: Yes
dad: OH. OK! Thank you!
me: ok........ sure.....
Yes... so thats mainly the conver. He thought i really wanted to help him! WHAT THE HELL! He thinks i want him to be with that BITCH AND HER TWO CHILDREN! Why the hell can't he understand that i want him! I WAN HIM TO STAY! not leave... iz that all he knows.... or cares for that matter... i bet all that is on his mind is... 'my children would love this or that. they wanna come to singapore. i must divorce quickly. my darling is waiting to me. they all wanna go to singapore. i hav to divorce quickly.' NOT A WORD or THOUGHT bout me.
Why is it that guys are so annoying! And also so.... IDIOTIC! BASTARDIC! LIARS! MEAN HEARTED MONSTERS! HEARTLESS! i really can't stand it. Guys are all the same to me. can't stand it. all of them mistake u and think wrongly all the time. And then they scold u or thank you for totally the wrong reason. Stupid right? Can't stand it.
Haiz... i really don't know what to do. Should i make my mum divorce him or something? or should i just ignore him? I really really really can't think of what to do. Help...
Its like... come to think of it. I hardly have any pictures of him with me except when i was a baby. he's never the one for pics anyway. ever since he stopped living with my mum and i. Its like... I'm so formal with him. I can't be informal and happy when i'm with him. Why? Well, i hope all this ends soon. I'm gonna commit suicide if this goes on.
To nessy : thanks for listening to me brag on and on bout my dad. Can't help it sometimes. Lurves!
To Nic tan: exact same words for u:D
to other frens: mayb u din noe bout this but thanks for being a fren.
To dad: althought i noe you will never read this, i love you alot. if you really really want to divorce mum forever to bring them to singapore. I will ask her to do so. I mean it. I love you! thought i noe you don't love me. Thanks for being a great father my whole 13 years. :)
Signing of,
HorseLova
❤6:34 AM
